I had the honor of helping plan, execute, and speak at a Police Wives conference recently. And let me tell you, if you haven’t been involved with planning an event like that, it’s exhausting! And I can promise, it’s much more work than you would anticipate. From details, to vendors, to spreading the word … and many moving pieces in between. Teams of volunteers, building details. You get the idea!
It’s where my heart has been since the days when my husband began the police academy. And it’s where my heart remains. With the wives. With the families.
I’m a wife who lives behind a badge. And I’m a wife with a God given word and mission.
The night before the conference, as I readied myself to speak on these very words God continued to impress upon my heart, I looked beyond the pile of lanyards covering my desk and spotted a sweet reminder smiling over the top.
“Be Strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go” (Joshua 1:9).
I’ve been casually writing on my personal page for several years now. At first, sharing my faith and my story was a bit of a stretch for me. It was uncomfortable and well beyond my comfort zone. But as I submitted to God and allowed Him to use my feeble efforts, it has become much more than I would have ever imagined. It even led me here!
I still claim my high school English teacher would laugh out loud to know I’m writing. She saw my grades. I promise, she would have never seen this coming! But thinking back to those beginning days, knowing how nervous I was to hit the “post” button. … What would people think? Am I’m sharing too much? Writing out of context? Should I scrap this whole writing plan as people critique and misrepresent what I attempt to share from my heart? It’s become easier.
Jump back to the day of the conference. Those same nerves and questions met me as I set foot on the stage. I felt my body stiffen with nerves and anxiety. “Be Brave, Melinda. Be Brave.” When writing, I can maneuver words once they hit the screen. If need be, I can edit the words and phrases to ease flow. Make more sense. Bring emphasis. I’m a bullet point type girl. I like structure. Yet, on a stage with a microphone meant I had no ability to create orderly flow. No edit features. No delete button! However, I knew, at that moment, that’s where I needed to be. Still not sure where it will lead or eventually take me (if anywhere at all), I took the step. Outside my box. Outside my comfort zone. Knowing if this is what God wants me to continue doing, I will gain more confidence as I allow God to use my feeble efforts to His glory!
What about you? Has God given you a dream or a vision that seems a bit scary? Something much bigger than you. Is He calling you to hit the streets or to be a larger influence in the lives of those around you? Maybe He is calling you to a ministry that will become your mission?
What are you waiting for!? You don’t have to conquer the world in one day, but you do have to start. Start somewhere. Might I recommend starting small?
“Do not despise these small beginnings, for the Lord rejoices to see the work begin” (Zechariah 4:10a).